Short-Lived Love

Well, it’s all over, I lost interest again and didn’t even stay faithful for the two weeks we were together.

Not much else to say, I could bore you with my week, but it’s been too odd to believe and involves making out with 4 people, sleeping with 1 and being asked to be in a gay porn film. Hence, I’m cutting back on the booze.

I’ll leave you with a crappy poem or two or three (keep finding them on my bedroom floor):

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Rest damn body, Just rest for one night,
Instead I’m still wide-eyed by first morning light,
So I’ll toss and I’ll turn and try to feel homely,
But this bed is cold, so cold now I’m lonely.

By M.W.D. Lewis 09/01/09

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My nerves are shot and I just want to bail,
My life has become a tragic fairytale,
Just please do not force me to follow your footsteps,
I’m not sure if I can sink to new depths,
You can’t buy my friendship though your trying hard,
Just don’t hold my welfare with such disregard,
I’m my own worst enemy and that you will find,
Here’s a receipt for my life printed and signed.

By M.W.D. Lewis 10/03/09

Loving U is Knot Easy

I can’t write, and I know what I want to say,
You’ve got me hooked on you, yet you’re pushing me away,
but I’ll keep holding on, because I’ve got nothing to loose,
and if you spare me one more kiss, I’ll lay off the booze.

Don’t fuck me about, I’m so fragile already,
I thought we were supposed, to be taking this steady,
I’ve put in my effort, although stayed quiet shy,
I guess I just wasn’t meant, to love another guy.

By M.W.D. Lewis 24/03/09

If anyone could name them, I would appreciate it very much.

I Can’t Sleep, Waiting For Saturday

I’ve gone and regressed back to a teenager and not only gone and got a crush on someone. We met in a pub and we couldn’t keep our eyes off each other, but I thought I could be imaging it, so I got a friend to comfirm that he was actually glancing over at me and the more drunk I got the more I needed to talk to them. So, i did and we arranged to meet at the same place, same day next week. So, we met and it was magical and we get on so well and with that the crush has developed.

Now we are meeting tomorrow and i’m so nervous, it’s scary. This is just so not like me. Changing for the best?

My Week (In Short Bursts)

Okay, I think I should explain the recent lapse in vlogs and blog posts as many of you have asked, but only one asked publicly (Why is that? Is it embaressing?) The thing is, I’ve got a new job as a Medical Lab Assistant in a London Hospital (No, I will not tell you which one). With a new job comes new people to meet and party with, and being in the centre of London brings new partying prospects. Therefore, I have been literally working and partying.

Saturday Night

I went to my colleague’s leaving party. I was wasted and from what I’ve been told I was drinking wine, beer, cocktails and soco and lemonade. Me and my new best buddy were the only ones left and we were jumping on the chairs. We eventually went our seperate ways, I got horribly lost, met some people on the bus and ended up back at their house in Putney. They claimed it would be a party, but it was just 3 of us and then 1 went to bed. Although, I must admit Chris? and I were so drunk and it was so funny.

This Friday

I can’t believe this either, but I’m going to see Fall Out Boy at Wembley Stadium. I CAN’T FUCKING WAIT!

P.s. Below is my first video from my new collab channel on YouTube: